Life Is One Big Ball of Ambiguous Uncertainty

“Life is one big ball of ambiguous uncertainty…only the present moment is certain.”

That’s me quoting myself from last week’s column.

Since the beginning of this year, I’ve been looking forward to seeing my primary physician in May for my “Welcome to Medicare” appointment. Not just because I’m looking forward to Medicare, but because I love my doctor. He always asks about my total wellbeing, not just my physical wholeness. But other morning I got a call from his office telling me that my he had unexpectedly died. I was in shock and stunned. What surprised me was not just the news of my doctor’s death, but how much it has affected me.

One thing I’ve learned about this ambiguously uncertain life here on this earth plane is that it’s easier to navigate if we know the charts of our inner emotional waterways. We can then feel more comfortable with change, knowing that some things might not feel so turbulent while others may feel as devastating as a tsunami. When someone I care for makes their transition, it can sometimes feel like I’ve lost my connection with them – even though I know the Truth is that we are always connected with one another as one with and of God on the unseen side of life. Yet, even with this knowledge, the grief I go through can feel as though I’m not only at a loss but also lost without them here. And I am grateful for this grief because I recognize it as love. It’s what someone once said, “Grief is just love that feels it has no place to go and so it feels lost.”

Love is what is at the bottom of this big bowl of life full of ambiguity and uncertainty. Love is the anchor that holds life and all its changing uncertainty in a grounding place. Love is the space where we are totally present in the moment with ourselves, with God, with Mother Nature, with our loved ones as we feel our hearts open. This is where we are so present in knowing and feeling our oneness with each other that there are no words to express it, just tear ducts that leak from our hearts bursting open.

This is the Divine Love that is always present and available to us no matter what. And we can make ourselves all the more open to receive this Divine Love when we are present in the here and now, without any expectation of what is to come or remorse or regret of what has already passed. Being present knowing who we are, that we are loved and we are made out of love and into love, we learn how to ride the tides of change with ease and grace as love unfolding love.